Why does Itching feel so good? Why do you have that compulsion or desire to”itch” when you see someone doing something and moving towards their dreams with passion, the itch increase, we scratch more but we forget that any relief from scratching will be short-lived.
We are on the 9th day of the BlogChatterA2Z Challenge and through my theme #26days26ways, I am trying to touch maximum problematic areas which creates hurdles in our day to day life and how we can overcome them.
When I was working in a Multinational Company where I just faced the regular office politics and work pressure which we all go through occasionally, but once I was home I felt a sigh of relief.
In 2016, when I was diagnosed with a rare kind of Tuberculosis, I had to forcefully sit at home and undergo treatment which lasted for a year, that was the time I started writing, Initially everyone took it positively thinking I am just cutting on time by writing, but guys you all know writing is no less than an addiction, and I too got addicted, now it was words and me playing in my mind, the life lesson, the situation I was in, the urge of doing something, all became a combined supernatural forces which turned me into a blogger in a year.
Read Here: My Journey from size M to XL
I was a passive writer at the beginning and slowly I got a hold of blogging world (still learning) and started posting my work at various platforms of the social media, the positive feedback was very less and comments from my friends and relatives were in a larger chunk making fun about my writings and doubting my career choice.
It was easy for me to just shut my Pandora box and go into hiding and never dare to write. I left my school and friends’ Whatsapp group. There was a time when I had to uninstall Whatsapp and Facebook because I was facing a lot of negative vibes from my cousins and friends just because few of my stories were published in the newspaper, and platforms like Women’s Web, Momspresso and I was posting it everywhere happily, which they could not digest.
I stay in touch with my good friends and believe in nurturing relationships, but I never expected this kind of reactions from my own people. Just because a person is not doing something (could be due to any reason) and someone else is trying to stay in life by following her passion that is also not acceptable to the world.
I think I expect a lot from myself, the blogging rage was not enough so I took up Vlogging as I had shared in my very first article that I was very much made fun of my videos on youtube again by friends and relatives, but I had to express, writing was enough for me so started speaking.
One day one my neighbor asked me why do you create videos on youtube? Who is going to listen to you? When Mahatma Gandhi says something and you say something there is a huge difference? Now being a highly sensitive person, my heart ached, something broke inside me, but somehow I managed to smile and said nothing in response.
Another incident was a little bit humiliating when one of my friends showed me her four-year-old son’s videos playing with toys which they upload on youtube with more viewers and subscribers than mine and made fun of me saying that, Look a four-year-old has got more skills than you. Again I smiled.
People have these Itchy intentions all the time, and it is not me who has faced this, I am sure the scenario must be worse with others, But you know what it leads to?
- Performance pressure
- Completely giving up the idea.
Snap!! I came out of it because my desire or my “Itch” to make it for myself was stronger than theirs for breaking me. How?
- Staying away from toxicity
- Choosing to be more assertive
- Believing in self and the whole idea of your dream
- Stop for nothing
- Expressing gratitude to everyone, even who tried to pull me down, because they helped me to hold on and move on.
I can go and on, but I feel I should stop here.
In the end, I would say that work towards your dreams and follow your passion, find your passion, you will find many obstacles in your life but tell them you are not listening to them, let your work make some noise.
Much love and gratitude
The #BlogchatterA2Z series is building up right here 🙂