Tag Archive | pain

Going back to the start

May23

Oh I wish, how I could start it all over again

not for you this time,

for myself

my soul

my dying energy

and for the choices I made…

before I drown

in the ocean of my mind

I want to make it right

this time I want to do it for me

this time for that 16 year old girl

for that child in me…

For the choices I made

intoxicated with your love

bruised with your thoughts

I was everywhere

But I belonged nowhere

I yelled I screamed

but I was shut and demeaned

While gathering the missing pieces

of my broken heart

I cry and I realise

Somethings are just not meant to be

Here I feel broken yet complete

with my courage to move on

I ended this to begin anew

and from here I am going back to the start…

Love,Priyanka

Invisible Wounds

Apr5

Physical or Mental

pain is a pain…

physical wounds are visible and curable

mental wounds are invisible and unendurable

just because you carry it well it doesn’t make you strong

you can be weak and there is nothing wrong

a broken heart is tired and drained

not able to accept further pain

you get labeled as a victim player

and you are no more in someone’s silent prayer

you are messed up in your mind

you can’t think straight

you just want to preserve what’s yours

before the world can have it’s take

you feel week and vulnerable

uncomfortable and irrecoverable

you need time to heal

but it becomes a never-ending ordeal

you wake up to make it even with your life every day

but this emptiness leaves you rattling

few people around leave you battling

for the pain and suffering, we go through

I have learned one thing

you need to have something of your own

a place of your own

identity of your own

people hardly stay forever

but you need to stick by your soul

love, Priyanka

ए ज़िन्दगी

Dec2

आज़मा ले ए ज़िन्दगी

की अब भी साँसे बाकि है ..

जो न देखा है मंज़र

वो भी देखना बाकि है

जो तप कर ही सोना बनता है

और घिस कर ही हिरा निखरता है

तो तेरा ये सितम भी मंज़ूर है

तुझे हासिल कर सकू

उसके लिए ये ग़म भी मंज़ूर है

पर एहसान इतना करना मुझपर

की जब तू हार मान ले तो मुझे इक्तिला हो जाए

तुझसे लड़ते हुए कुछ साँसे तो बचा लुंगी

बची हुई ज़िन्दगी को मुस्कुरा कर गुज़ार लुंगी

-प्रियंका